why so serious?

so here i sit. done with all my undergraduate requirements. (yay!) all the hard stuff is behind me. i survived neikirk's poli sci class, and might have even pulled out a B, even after the final. then in the most impressive hour of my life i ate lunch, got back to my room, showered, shaved, and transformed from the grimey bum i had been all morning into a pretty and competant lady, and made it back down to campus to give a presentation with three minutes to spare. if i can handle that, im pretty sure i can do pretty much anything. i'm ready (in theory) to graduate next week and take on the real world.
this is a good place to be. this is how i always wanted college to be - all the fun and none of the work. so why am i having such a hard time enjoying it and being happy to be right where i am? instead, im worried about all kinds of things like where i'm gonna live and how i'm gonna get there after graduation and whether or not my still relatively new relationship can survive across 2,000 miles and how i'm ever going to find a job to finance all the crazy travelling i am going to be doing and how bad i really want to be at my friends weddings but i cant do that from wyoming cuz i have no money. why does it always come back to the money? i need a job to get money so i can start paying back my school loans but i need to have a home address and figure out where i want to live before i can get a job but i need money for gas to drive everywhere and im stuck once again in a big catch22.
i thought i was finally going to know where i was heading and all the uncertainty was going to go away. what im trying to remind myself of now is that its not all that bad. everything will work out exactly how God wants it to, and i just have to be patient. i didnt ask to learn patience, but apparently someone out there asked for me. they obviously know something i dont know. but i guess i'll just have to find out later and try to enjoy the ride :)