update on the boy(friend!).

Valentines Day 2009 was a whole weekend of celebration. this is a big deal cuz if you read my blog on a regular basis you probably know me pretty well and its no secret that valentine's day isnt exactly my favorite holiday. in my opinion its nothing more than a hallmark holiday invented to make boys buy more presents for girls and make money for cheesy card companies. in the past i have protested by wearing black and being an obnoxiously anti-valentine advocate for single's awareness day. believe it or not ive toned down a lot since then.
the party started on Friday with 114 roommate date night at Applebee's. good dinner and pretty colored drinks in fun glasses :) so on Saturday we decided it would be too much hassle to actually go out and rub elbows with all the cheesy vomit-inducing lovey dovey couples (and none of us felt like it two days in a row) so we just had dinner in. Mark came and joined us and we made lasagna and corn and applesauce and (nonalcoholic) frozen strawberry margaritas, and then we watched singin in the rain. a good time was had by all.
after the movie, Mark and i sat around talking, and he gave me my surprise present (which was a page-long poem that made me smile) and then he asked me (again) if i knew where we stood. so instead of saying something remotely sabatoging this time like "i dont know" i decided to answer his question with a question so i asked him what he would like us to be and he said that he would like to call me his girlfriend and i told him that i would like that :)
it made me even more happy that all of this happened after midnight so technically it wasnt valentines day anymore :) i guess a little bit of the rebel in me lives on lol.

study break.

because sometimes, you just can't be serious any longer.
gotta love self timers on cameras :)

my life in a Gilmore Girls quote.

Lorelai: You really like him, don't you?
Rory: [troubled] Yeah!
Lorelai: Well, okay then. Just calm down.
Rory: I just don't want to do or say anything else that's gonna be remotely moronic.
Lorelai: I'm afraid once your heart is involved, it all comes out in Moron.

great big thanks to my Mom and Sister for being greatly encouraging to me in my moronic endeavors of the past week or so. sorry that all my recent posts have been about boy, but its the most exciting thing happening in my life right now. if you would rather i tell you all about my poli sci paper or my concrete homework i could oblige but i have a feeling you would all stop reading my blog forever. and that would be sad.

the plan. a/o i'm a jerk.

so the plan was ice skating. that is, until i decided for some reason after we already drove there and saw the mass amounts of middle and high school kids that i wouldnt have fun ice skating. i like ice skating really i do, but all of a sudden i heard myself saying 'i'll do this if you want but i wont really have fun.' who says stuff like that??? it was a perfectly good plan. and then my stupid mouth had to make up a dumb lie that middle school boys freak me out. what is wrong with me? do i want to sabatoge this? is that what im trying to do here? i like this kid. i like him even more cuz he doesn't hate me for bein a dumb jerk about ice skating. he made me stop saying i was a jerk, and at one point mandated (mostly joking) that i even stop thinking it.
we ended up borrowing a movie from his roommate (Shaun of the Dead. gross fake zombie movie) and watching it in my apt. he reassured me multiple times that he didnt care what we did, and that he wasnt upset about not ice skating, and he didnt even think i was ridiculously crazy. (although he did admit he liked the fact that the gross parts made me bury my head in his shoulder.) in fact, after explaining that he thinks things through for a long time before he acts on anything and that he's not a rash decision maker, he asked if we were at the point that we should change our facebook statuses (lol). and what do i say? in true indecisive sabatoge fashion i (queen of bad answers) say 'i dont know. you should know that im terrified of commitment and ive never been really good with the whole relationship thing... but i like you.' again - who says stuff like that???? so i avoided answering the question at hand in the most retarded way possible. and yet, he still likes me. we sat on the couch and talked after the movie ended, and when he had to leave he gave me a hug gnight and kissed my forehead.
why would i want to ruin such a sweet thing? do i not deserve to be happy and jus dont realize it? usually it takes a lil longer for the fact that im a complete mess to be made public knowledge. but this kid hasn't been scared away yet. and trust me, i'm not consciously trying to drive him away, but apparantly something in my subconscious is out to get me. maybe im a little scared of screwing this up, but that is no reason for me to (subconsciously or otherwise) sabatoge somethign this good.

details details.

so apparently people would like to know particulars about the aforementioned date of last weekend, more than just knowing that i went on one. Well it all started on Wednesday, when a boy asked me if he could ask me on a date sometime... kind of like having insurance that i would say yes if he actually asked. it seemed like the long way around to me, but made me smile anyway :) Then on Friday, (same) boy asked if he could take me out on a date sometime that weekend. Since Friday night was already planned as 114 roommate date night, plans were made for Saturday. I dressed up as much as i dared without running the risk of being overdressed, and he picked me up at my door. He cleaned off my car for me, and after his two roommates helped him push Gretchen out of the icy mess that was the parking lot, we were on our way. We went to see Mall Cop (hilarious) and then after we stopped for gas (that he pumped for me) we went to EatnPark instead of Applebees cuz he had never been to EatnPark. silly Marylanders. we ate dinner, had grilled stickies a la mode (boom!) for dessert (another first for him) then jus sat and talked into the wee hours of the morning. gotta love that they're open 24 hours :) He drove home, walked me to the door of my building (cuz it was too late for him to be inside) and gave me a hug g'night.
we're goin out again tonight :) i would give you the details, but he's refusing to tell me the plan ahead of time. all i know is that i'm supposed to dress kind of warm and be ready to go around 745. i'm kind of excited. it should be fun :) i'll let you know how it goes.

its everywhere.

i've been reading a book. for fun. don't ask me where i have been finding time to do this, i really dont know but i really like the book. its The Shack by William P. Young. i'm only about halfway through it now, but i only started it about three hours ago :)
what i had to share was yet another intance of cloy being used outside of my family: its a more sad context, but its there nonetheless.

"Other times he would dream that his feet were stuck in cloying mud, as he caught breif glimpses of Missy running down the wooded path ahead of him, her red cotton summer dress gilded with wildflowers flashing among the trees."

the first time i have personally seen the word cloy used outside of the hymnal.
but seriously, read this book.

happy february.

Things i did this weekend:
- Learned how to weld. complete with funny hat/mask and everything. its oddly empowering. i like it.
- Broke into a boy's room and stole a coffee pot. Now before you think i have finally snapped, dropped out of school, and fallen into a life of petty crimes know this: we had the room code AND permission. but thats not nearly as exciting.
- Bruised my butt escaping from the scene of the crime. Actually more of my upper thigh, but still. it was embarrassing and it hurt. i would post a pic except for its mildly inappropriate.

- Made black and gold jello AND a cake shaped like a football. impressive, i know :)
- Went on a date. :D
- Had grilled stickies at EatnPark with a grilled stickies virgin.
- Celebrated Pittsburgh's SIXTH Super Bowl victory!!!
- Punched a treadmill. not on purpose. there was blood and everything. ok so maybe that was this morning, but a good story.